So I was bumming around the net and I found this post from Amy Lee,

I've been sitting here reading through so many of these questions and comments in the "Ask me" thread... trying to find one I haven't answered and want to... I guess I just want to say thanks for making me feel good. Ha. Its really nice to know so many of you miss the music and want to know when you'll hear it again. I've gotten to the point where I'm working on it almost every day (night I should say). I'm in love with it. Enough to fight for it. Enough to reopen the door to a world of chaos even though it scares me. I don't want to give away too much about what it will sound like, because so much will change before the end, but its... not what you would expect. Its definitely not happy married music, but its not like I'm dying the whole time either. Its dark, sarcastic, fun, strange, familiar and very different at the same time. It makes me feel alive and I wish I could show you right now. If you were here, at my house, I would pour you a drink and we would turn it up really loud and rock out to it, and I know you would love it. Thank you everyone who has said their lives were touched by the music. It touches my life too, and so do you, in many ways.

Somebody asked how it made me feel when someone tells me the music changed their life. It makes me feel like I'm not crazy. It feels wonderful.

Also somebody asked why I talk about blood so much, complete with quite a few lyric quotes. It made me laugh. I promise to offer slightly less blood on the next album. Slightly.

Last but not least, I often get asked about band members, the whole "is it a band, is it solo, etc" (understandably! There have been quite a few). Everyone who has ever been a part of Evanescence is a part of its story, a part of its soul. From day 1 it has been a collaborative effort and different people have contributed over the years. But it is more than just people. It's something that has taken on its own life, it has grown, changed and become more interesting, more soulful, more honest than a perfect image will allow. The passion is what makes it live on, the obsessive focus on straight up, head first, love for the music. That is my band. And against all obstacles I'm sticking to it.

See you guys soon!

love,
Amy

First off I should be paying attention in Bio class and not surfing the net (or blogging, for that matter) , but I've already taken the equivalent of 4 years of biology, so I think studying later will be fine. I'm mostly here for clicker points, ahaha.

I'm super tired today, but I'm trying to make the best of things. Yesterday was a pretty stressful day, I feel that I need to pay attention to how I'm reacting toward other people. I was pretty rude to most of my co-workers (including Erica) but I felt a total lack of respect toward my abilities (and duties) as a Head Clerk yesterday. I'm really quite tired of all the drama that goes around work. I've decided that I will not be talking to anyone at work about problems or issues that I'm having, besides Syeda. I can't trust anyone, and I certainly cant trust the managers that I thought I could trust.

My sister broke up with her boyfriend, and I'm kind of relieved for her? I'm not sure. Keita was great to her, but I respect her decision, and especially respect her opinion in the matter.

We went to see Paranormal Activity, pretty good movie! It is rated R, and my sister is only 16, but she still bought the ticket. The bitch at the ticket stand then asked to see ID's even though she bought the ticket. So she wouldn't let her in. We just her walk around to the exit of the theater, and then snuck her in the exit, haha. Fuck you.

My life is like a whirring torrent of stress, tension, and depression lately. What's wrong with me? I'm not quite sure, but I need a change. I cut off my bangs, and went from looking like this:

to this:


So it's pretty drastic. I feel handsome and older.

I thought about cutting last night, and it was such a blast from the past. I thought I was over that feeling. I decided to gulp down some tension tamer tea from Katie, and go to bed instead. I'm not even happy in my dreams. In my dreams I fail to do simple tasks.

I just hope I can get over this.

On a side note, my scarf and new jacket made a badass/cute combo. :)